Honestly, even as I write, perhaps with the best of value commensurated in the inspiration, and together with the joy of the product, portray at least a potential to myself and to people yet unknown even without publication for now. I am sorry as a writer, but publishing a work is a different game altogether, and support lax in the sorrow of this economic recession. I cannot say I fail, but fail forward first, perhaps success can come along the way and the rest can be history. I did put up my effort, but I guess I really need professional guidance, and a new frontier to plant my seeds of literature. Well, I thought of the mounting financial and moral pressure, and I decide to find a job first.
The search of a job takes a review of perspectives, as my second nature is entrepreneurship, but as the Chinese saying goes, "Everything except the absence of the wind will cease again to nothingness." Well, I am waiting for a prized partnership that I invest with unwavering initiative, knowing that the person is not yet ready with a contract to study first. University fees overseas are expensive, and I know I am one of most who persuaded him there, so here is my genuine concern and hope to mend what is economic inefficiency. So here I am, knowing I need his talent, and is able to proudly say I probably can compensate his expenditure with a partnership that is heightened on friendship and contribution. I say this is a strategic alliance, and for the world who has weathered us through with the realisation of ideals, I trust wonders will be steadfast to the rest of humanity like a tribute of life.
A way from some of my ideals and mishaps, I find myself high on hope and low on pride. At least I know that this hope is the effect of trust in God and his sometimes unfathomable plan, which might so broad and wide in possibilities while keeping a epicurean and symmetrical perspective, that I bow down to the Creator. While my stories have dimensions to stare, understandably God's magnitude and multifold is the odyssey of starlight and stardust. Because He cares, even as my hope have yet to realise the smile of the community, I should continue working as I should, and consider others as I may, and some fiction and fruition is likely to gather momentum towards the light.
So, I thought again with a different take. My talent came from education, and my value with the softer aspects of interest and love comes from the strength of youth, like the saying that heaven is strong, and so is the youth with positive and proper perspective. This became obvious, and even as I need time to my overseas compassion, especially to be with my father, I retraced and retracted myself to be a dedicated teacher support staff for years to come, but ponderingly considered with thoughts and effort on my sideline passion. The scope of being a teacher support staff is so stunning in the design of what does that suited my life, for all the investments and future concerns, and I know I could just be the "education vat engineer" and moral teacher of many of our youths, while keeping a portfolio true to my family and writer's ambition. I know my talent can be put to good use here for years on, and definitely so with a balance of time and remuneration, for that is how social nature governs the beauty in our economy.
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