Nature call

Enviromental friendliness is essential for Earth continual sustenance. We have all seen the hype of the greenhouse effect on Earth and how the changing climate may impact human quality of life. Obviously, this call for responsiblity is an awakening sign for human to embrace mother Earth and to rectify our previous ignorance, starting from the Industrial Age, to ensure a bright future for our children. Every human can play a part to recycle, reduce and reuse the resources we have, as well as embrace ecogreen measures. Well, I took the heed of this ongoing duty for all, and decided to recycle my plastic bottles as well as cookie tin can. Singapore National Environment Agency has given us in a household a recycling bag for placing our unused plastic and metal container for recycling, so that we efficiently and wisely manage our resource usage. I am glad for this act of kindness for our living environment, and I hope all of us embrace ecogreen measures in one way or another. Let us urge each other to build a future for our childrens, and cheers to the green movement.
Another funny issue on nature call is about a crow, who daringly explore our humble abode. He tittered to our home interior, fluidly in bird-like fashion and even perched itself on our white leather sofa. Well, this is a noteworthy photo if only I had the camera with me. Well, this is the funny and entertaining side of nature call, when nature undertakes a fine responsibility to commune with human beings in our civilized society. Kudos to the crow. I feel nice.

I hope for my grades

Now, dear Brian is in the examination mode. I have to study and I have a lot of time for that. Well, my honest aim is grades around the 70s and I earnestly hope to achieve that. I feel that doing enough to achieve my grades is worth the effort, for firstly, the studying process improves your talent, and secondly the grades is a good comfort for a lifetime. This is a feedback of a good moment spent on positive learning in your life from the academic sense. Well, there are many other life improvement we can garner for, though those are reserved until after this purposeful examination period.
Well, my best academic time was in Chung Cheng High for my O Levels and I enjoyed the process as well as the results. That was mostly a smooth ride for me, and thank God for this time when I had my humble success. Hwa Chong first year is considered a year when I do well in my studies, though looking back, I was more balanced when I was in Chung Cheng. Well, at least my academic foundation cushioned my ride pass the A Level, even though I have mishaps of a sorry nature from my depression. Well, I was partly wrong, that I admit, and I was given compassion for my saving grace.
Grades may guarantee a good ticket to the working world, though the entrance is just a starter, and consistent effort and talent is needed, including good work ethics and morals. Well, at our age, this good start is worth the effort. I shall do my best. May you succeed too.

Love and success from a 20 years old point of view

While I am always an advocate of love first, and then success; to be realistic, we need both love and success to live in society. Love may be the essence of life, though we need success in order to show love and to support the love for our family and for our society. Love and success comes hand in hand, for love builds upon success, success is achieved from the foundation of love. While success stabilize love, love also stabilize success. This allows for a stable life that is smooth flowing, easy-going and enjoyable.

Societal norms has this type of life as the man who studies well, invest goodness for his talent building and qualification-attainment. He invests his loving energy into the education system, and he gets his personal benefits from the system, increasing his value along the way. This is investing love to attain academic success. As he progress through life, his paper qualification gets him his first $2500 job, of which he may save his money for investment in starting a family in love. Now, with his former success, he invest in love to build love, and the stability of life improved, and he enjoy the fruits of his labour.

Now, I have introduced the idea of a normal and good life. Love and success builds upon each other, promoting a healthy lifestyle, and integrating the person well into society as a active contributor of love.

Happy that my writing earns cash

My mom is one of that greatest contributor to my upbringing. Most of my joy and success can be attributed to her in one way or another. I am grateful to my mom for what happen today. One of the joyous thing that I could do for my mom is to accompany and to help her with charity goods delivery the night before, and we managed to enjoy ourself along the way. I thanked God for human valuable compassion for each other.

I was given an assignment, from my mom that Destiny Beauty Centre needs a person to contribute to them for a promotional pamplet writing. I did my best, wrote a three pages promotion in one hour, with the best english that I can muster, for my contract. Mary Yen, the boss of Destiny Beauty Centre, is amiable and we interact in a polite and professional manner. She is happy with the first preview of my writing, and for that, she gave me one hundred dollars for that project. I was pleasantly surprised, and I congratulated myself for that joyous project that went well. My mom congratualted me for the good start. At the same time, I am grateful to God for giving me the gift of writing, and with this gift, I can make enough money to earn a living. I think my dream of being a professional writer is slowly materializing. I am glad for this. I did the wise thing I understood, and that is to save the earning in the bank. As I travel to the bank, I was inspired by the thought of children too, and understand the need to save enough money for our children upbringing. At the same time, I am reminded of my parents love for me, by providing my needs with their well-earned money.

Writing is a profession, and writing gives a person a flexibility to work at home, in a free and easy way, with the production of excellent work being the main criteria. Well, I hope one day, I may be as proficient a writer as Ralph Waldo Emerson , a man whom I only know to be a english writer with efficacy, or J.R Rowlings, a writer that may be able to captivate the soul of young students. I hope to be able to educate and entertain our treasureable youngster with excellent literature.

The basic of life

I believe that the importance of the mind and how the five senses coordinate together makes a man a man and set apart man from other animals. This is the basic of life, and truly, a man is only a man if he has his mind working properly, his senses in good accordance, and with this, form the basic of reality, of which through the absolute integrity of reality, can the virtues of man, the intellect of man, the earnest contribution to self and others be built up.

Dear friends, I hope you take good care of your body, your mental development as well as your five senses, for indeed, while we are endowed with our five senses from birth, we have to maintain good body function for our life to continue well. An important aspect as my friend, Weidi, has mentioned, is that we need a regular cycle of sleep pattern for a duration of seven to eight hours, and we also need to have proper nutrition.

Meanwhile, I understand that when a person have his basic health, he can go for a better quality of life. All of us human being are under physical laws, worldly laws and spiritual laws, and we have to use our mind, to interact with the law in good stead for our life benefit, and this is called logic. All laws have to be adhered to for order, and we just do the best as allowed for our good life.

Forgiveness

We all understand that love is a very important issue for human beings. A man that has love has everything he needs. How fortunate, for the gift of love to be upon us. Today, I learnt a new concept and that is about one of the fundamental linkage between love and forgiveness. Well, to continue loving a human being when there is a grievance, one have to forgive, and when one forgive, love can resume. One of the quotes that I admire deeply within me goes this way, "Forgiveness is the heartbeat of the divine." This is true beauty.

First thing is that we as human are learning for betterment, and we may make occasional errors in our lives, and therefore, one fundamental trait we need is the ability to forgive both ourselves and to forgive others. This pave the way for a light of peace to dawn upon our hearts, for continuation of the love purpose. Love is the very essence of life, and life exist for I believe, because of love. Forgiveness is needed to live harmoniously with other human beings.

In a sense, forgiving releases the tension between the forgiver and the forgiven, for the order to be restored, and normality to resume. For less a string that ties your heart to the ground, is a way to a joyous life, as both forgiver and forgiven feels relief.

You know, today, I have been forgiven as I forgive others. To me, this is growth, and while the hurt is real, I understand this is temporary in God's divine plan, and I grew, loving the healing nature of God as time remedies the situation as one set his heart and mind to forgive. How sweet is the forgiveness. I remember this wisdom, that we forgive others as others forgive us.

A talk with friends

Today, I feel elated for being able to talk to two of my good friends from overseas. Well, time has passed from the moment I was at Hwa Chong Junior College, being with my close and endearing 02s75 class. At that time, I was closest to MingQi and Weidi, and slowly I begin to develop my relationship with Ningyi, ZhiQing and Chew Seng. Well, Hwa Chong years have been a routine moment of purposeful study for the hope that science benefit mankind and my future. After nearly four years, I feel the love in some of my good friends grew stronger, uplifting spirits at times, for example Mingqi and Xiaolei. This is indeed a time of joy, when friends foster on after they are no longer affiliated by an institute, and the meaningful and synergic interaction makes friendship worthwhile. For me, I am more interested in human relationship and character building for this is an integral part of our humanity, to improve the self through social interaction with each other.

I have been with MingQi for a while, and he has been a good faithful friend, still the good old character I understand Mingqi who humbly loves others and carry himself well. We talk about love, life and the self, and we enjoyed ourselves during our time together. With Weidi, I enjoyed his humbleness and his earnest view for success, and he can sometimes be like a good brother to me. My other friend is Xiaolei, a friend whom I have not met for more than three years, though we keep in touch and our interaction grew stronger as God grant us the opportunity to understand life through honest sharing with each other. She has been like a sister to me, guiding me with her simple questions, and truly, allowing me to understand myself better with her chat. At the end, she always encourage me in the right direction. Yuting is a classmate I recently connect with, and she has kept her nice and pleasant composure. She is someone I admire for her humbleness, earnesty and perserverence, which gave her the success she has today, which has built up during five to six years of good and worthwhile effort. I understand from my friends who have been an inspiration for me, that consistency in goodness is the key for continual success. Then, we have the famous saying that my friend, ZhiQing, mention, that is to walk the talk. In other words, do what we preach.

While our flame of life is still ongoing strong in God's hand, may we synergize to build a world of hope for the future. To this, I recommend the song "Eternal Flame", that man may continue to be the good habitor of Earth as we humbly know is true.

The world today is globalized, and technology allow friends from different regions to communicate, and this is golden to humankind. We may as well call this age the golden age of communication. Praise God for man's advancement in science, for this convenience make people happier.

Grace and Ease

Deepak Chopra mention in his book on the Seven Spiritual Laws of Success that the first fundamental law is to be non-judgemental in life, to love self, and to appreciate the beauty of nature. This law allows people to appreciate life and to perceive life as life in essense is. When you perceive a mango for instance, you feel the essense of what makes a mango a mango, and you feel loved by the joy of having a fruit, and if you label mango good, you define the essense as good, and goodness is what you receive.

For a father and a mother, the best method to develop a child is not to judge the child, not to define the child, for a child has a great potential waiting to be fulfilled, and each judgement can shape the child, depending on how the child receive this. When we have to attribute quality to a child, a understanding parent will give positive and contributive remark, for the child will also appreciate this beautiful comment. I feel when the child is told he is good, then he himself feels good in some way and may continue to grow along in that field.

When we think of grace, we include the non-judgemental nature that grace emcompasses. For example, admiring a graceful dancer is a process of perception, and without any thought or comment, is a wonderful and joyful non-judgemental act. The feel of perception is certainly more serene than having to judge the sight. Well, my principle when I have to speak and comment is to only pass good and neccessary judgement, or else refrain from speaking or even thinking at all. When someone pass a good judgement for me to perceive, I may evaluate for a second or two, and then let my mind go to appreciate the beauty of the object of judgement, for just perceiving is indeed a golden process. When there is grace, there is lots of peace, ease and enjoyment, and all these happen easily under a non-judgemental nature. When a good tune is on the radio, maybe a person may sing along with his or her friends, and enjoy the moment, instead of being self-conscious. A graceful personna is with the prerequisite of a mature mind, for grace is about letting go of one's judgement under good and accepted condition. In my opinion, a humble man passes only casual good and honest comment, and do not judge unnecessarily. Therefore, we easily associate a humble man with grace.

Grace and ease comes together most of the time. With grace, we have ease. With ease, we have grace. A peaceful person feels ease and grace most of the time, and a trusting man is easily at ease and in grace. When we love our environment and our reality, we are in grace. When we appreciate what we already have, we are also in grace. When we are rest assured of our future, we are in ease. In grace, ease easily come. When we are at ease, with a positive attitude, we understand grace is with us too. For life, when we forgive and bless others, other will forgive and bless us too. This type of interaction promotes a society that is in grace, and with grace, the ease of life will come. Well, another idea is to be gentle in whatever we do, for a gentle person is in grace, and with the act of grace, is with the flow of least effort, and this is the flow of life, and ease will permeate from the person like overflowing water from a fountain.

My mom and me

A trip to Raj Vegetarian Restaurant is indeed a joyous occasion, and while the good food is appetising for our daily sustenance, the fabulous moment of sharing will bring joy and a golden moment of compassion together. My mother shared about her aspiration that she wants both Rene, my brother, and me, to be successful in our life. She also mentioned about the business joy that she derive from being able to do charity in future. Both my mother and I have compassion for children education. This is a touch of peace in my heart, for the time we have to be able to do good service from the heart. For me, I mentioned about my Daddy's business and how I love to see him being successful and honouring of Ema wishes for a successful family business. For me, my aim is to do charity, do an education business in the publishing circle. and be an inspiring writer and poet. I also wish for a good family joy and warmth for my brother and for him to be joyous. Well, when we come to the subject of longevity, we understand that the quality of life is important to peacefully and joyously call longevity a golden asset. I remember the potential of the golden sunset and the potential that the sun appears after the rain.

Being humble

Man should be humble before his elders, for the elders have more experiences and wisdom. A child being humble is clothed with serenity and will gain more from his interaction with his elders. The elders will appreciate the humbleness of the child and the interaction appears more joyous. A humble mind is also open for learning, and truely, we human only understand a fraction of the available human knowledge. While I may understand accounting at a pre-bachelor level, there are more than 100 different degree courses in the university, each offered up to docterate level. Be humble, for truely, we only know a little. At the same time, be confidence, for the little you know is sufficient for your life, as long as you remain humble.

Being humble is also part of order. All of man should be humble before authority, for authority is meant to guide and to help you. A man of authority, being humble, is even more appreciated, for he understands the measure of respect. The more you climb up the social ladder, the more accolades you may receive, though being humble is a measure of virtuous integrity. A man at the peak of his success, being humble, is more able to take good care of his resources to continue his level of success.

Bliss is more valuable than knowledge

As we move along the journey of life, each of us develop our own understanding of the world and of our own life. From young, we are fed with knowledge, and with a humble heart, we develop understanding of the wisdom of life on Earth. Indeed, one of my favourite poet, Fyodor Dostoyevsky put across the idea gently and elegantly, to love the whole world with an all-embracing love. True, good knowledge makes us love each other, the environment and the God we hold dear in peaceful joy, and that each moment is a golden ray of light on our soul, causing a joyous exultation of our spirit. Well, the joy of ideality on Earth, which is beautiful in design, bountiful in resources, and of intelligent composition in nature gladdened our hearts like the blooming of a flower. Well, God's creation is understandably perfect in all aspects.

Now, when we look at today's reality, we sometimes feel for the joy of childhood, with a ever-trusting mind that may not have much knowledge about ourselves and our surrounding, though having the golden bliss and clean love that our parents readily shower upon us. When young, everything seems white and good. A mature mind of an adult values good wisdom, and feels for the bliss of yesterday, when fed with worldly knowledge, understanding that not everything happen perfectly well as ideality hopes for, and a carefully treading mind that sift for positivity to keep the beautiful picture alive is well-treasured. My friend, our Earth is populated by various people of different nature, still with a simple and profound love that binds all humanity together, though we have to be wise with the content and the actions that we do. For this is to maintain the blissful moments in a world where there is sun and rain, to put ideas across metaphorically, and to keep light in my conveyence of truth. All of us are under causation, and to keep bliss is akin to keeping the faith in the light, and understanding that we just need to keep to our good path and viewpoint, for a freer and peaceful mind that will give us the joy of innocent in our heart. Be vigilent, for a enlightened mind is a joyous treasure to maintain for life, for this is one of the essense of life, and thank our holy God, for opening paths of light for us always as well as our heart is keen to understand love. We shall hope to view a golden sunset, understanding that there will be another sunrise, in the lovely spirit of the light. Keep the bliss, for the bliss stabilize us in the rainbow of light.

A mini bird paradise

I am an avid fan of nature, and the beauty of nature brings me closer to appreciate creation. My humble sized garden may not be able to house a nursery of exotic plants, though the size is good for a few good fruit trees, a couple of flowering plants and some shrubs. Well, recently, I notice my garden, being a beauty in my neighbourhood, is attracting several species of birds. While Singapore is not known for the variety of bird species, my home has already attracted Crows, Sparrows, Pigeons, hummingbird and surprise, a Macaw (parrot). This is indeed a great joy for me, to see a peaceful and rainbow-coloured macaw in my garden. This bird wanted food, and is chewing on the leaves of my mango fruit tree. Happy as this beautiful guest is invited to be with me, I let this be. I have always loved natural garden, and the addition of distinguised birds of paradise only adds to the life of the exuberant garden. I felt an inspiring moment of blithe when I see a bird of great beauty in my garden. The Macaw has a princely facial feature, peaceful and calm, and the feathers of the bird's body is a hue of green and yellow, well blended with my garden leafy green tree. This Macaw is mild mannered and is like a polite guest of honour to me. I notice that many different species of bird flying in different manner, and this is a joy of scenary by itself. Even the simple crow is like a gem to me, eating fruit seeds provided by my garden, and showcasting a sense of confidence and peace in the crow's ever graceful movement.

Easter Sunday

Easter Sunday is a day many people envision eggs hatching into colourful bunny. Well, God gave us a colourful day of light hearted events on this special occasion. For I, when I think of Easter, I think of rainbow hued sky and human rejoicing in cities. This day is meant to me as a day of praise to God, and to each other, for light see light on this day.

On Christianity note, this day is the day our beloved Jesus Christ ascended into heaven. This is indeed a day of rejoicing for one and all. Relax, open your heart to the spirit of the light, and be in the mood of jubilee.

My father always told me to be jovial, and this is a virtue that I yearn to integrate into my being, for a more happy, light hearted and lifely self. Well, the mood of joviality well suit the Easter theme. In reality, my father is still in Indonesia and my mother is attending a spiritual course, therefore, I am alone at home. I promise to remain good and study well. Life has many pleasant surprises, and who knows, next year, I may spent Easter in the presence of my parents.

To everyone else, may love, joy and peace fill your year. Have trust, for this year may be your year of jubilee.

How to receive love from German Shepherd

Well, today, my mom and me placed frontline protection on our two beloved German Shepherd. This is to facilitate healthy body using a chemical shield. Then, my mum cleaned the ears of our two German Shepherd while I continued with combing the fur of the two German Shepherds. They are happy after the health service. I feel good.

Now, we understand that pets are good to us, and they are beautiful to watch. There is a cost to this, for they are part of life, and life needs care and nurturement to grow. We gave them care, attached love to them freely, and they showers us with their affection and attention. To me, even the presence and breathing of the German Shepherd induces happiness.

In life, we have to love and care, and having pets is one way of learning how to love and care. Well, I feel one of the best gifts my parents gave me is the joy of having two German Shepherd dogs. They softened and make my heart grow fonder and sweeter. How sweet is the love of German Shepherd greeting me when I return home from school.

I remember once, as a young child, that we breed goldfish. They are good to look, though whenever we go for an holiday, there is a responsible to find care for the goldfish, for they need food and clean water everyday. Love comes with responsiblity. To enjoy, a person needs to put in proper effort and love accordingly to connect to the flow of blestation. A garden can be a blessing in disguise. When given care, a humble piece of land becomes a beautiful garden. Labouring for love is well worth the effort, therefore do something constructive. The reward will come, one way or another.

Good Friday

Good Friday is a very precious day to man, for good friday is a day of hope for man continual survival. God love us dearly. God have faith in us, and he entrusted this day as a day of love for man, that man can be like the mango, in essense, a physical being with a stable soul, for the mango has a white seed that represent the pure and clean soul. Jesus Christ is sent as a moral teacher to soften man's heart and to teach about the correct way of living. Indeed, today, is like a day of thanksgiving, where man can rejoice that God is with man, like the essence of Emmanuel. Thank God, our creator, for this day, when man can rejoice that God take care of our Earth, to ensure its future.

Man can also rejoice in the fact that man have life forevermore, going through the cross to the next life, as another happy human being, in our humble world that is our dear home. I remember Helen Keller, a genius in writing, and someone I admire greatly as a budding writer mysef, for she mention that we should love, appreciate and cherish the colours and beauty of Earth before we look at the vast blue sky. In other word, appreciate what we have. Like a man on the Colorado Plateau, his joy is sufficient, and his path is straight. I feel that a man who is contented, will receive what he needs, and his life will be ample, of a humble flower blooming to appreciate the nutrition from the surrounding. When the flower return to the Earth after showcasing the beauty, many more flowers may bloom from the first flower, and this is the beauty of man.

A bird perched on a rock

Nature has many beautiful ways of teaching us words of wisdom. Faith is a virtuous attribute that man needs to continue to nurture, and from the viewpoint of love, faithfulness breeds trust and joy. We have a lifetime to learn about faith, and firstly, we understand that faith is about trusting and believing in worthy beings and ideas. The main fundamental is the faith in God, and that is paramount to trusting your entire life for good. Next, we should have faith in people and in ourselves, for we are the main intelligent living beings on Earth. We may also have faith in peaceful and good science, faith in beautiful and positive art expression, faith in good knowledge, faith in the human civilization system of law and authority for order and peace. All we need is good faith for a good harmony in a world of order and peace.

Religion teaches us about good faith, and people have faith in the various religious leaders, like Jesus Christ, Sidharta Gutama Buddha and Nobu Mohammed for their outstanding character that shines like a shield of hope in the blessed daylight. I am a Christian at heart, and I understand the qualities of Jesus Christ, a man who is completely humble, peaceful, pious, forgiving, good-natured, wise and righteous. He is a moral hero in my eyes and will always stand as a pillar of the light. Sidharta Gutama is a man who loves the people, care for the people and will forgo his inherited riches to be with the people. He is a source of compassion and generousity. Nobu Mohammed is about peace, about nature and about compassion. Well, I admire all three of them, and from my honest experience, I am closely affiliated to Jesus Christ. We are taught by our religious elders to have faith in these man of saintly virtues.

Well, when we think of our modern day situation, we have faith in our leaders, our teachers, our security force and our bosses, for they are the people we have to look up to in reality. Like Lee Kuan Yew promotes a multi-racial and multi-religious Singapore based on peace and harmony, he is like our champion. Goh Chok Tong promotes a gracious society. Lee Hsien Loong promotes our economic health. All these leaders are working wisely to make sure that we, their people, will live well in joy and peace. For me, a commoner by status, will always find trust and inspiration in the good deeds and speech by others, and especially more so when the others happens to be people you have to listen or look up to. A common example is about our parents. Whenever our parents give us an example of love, we feel the joy inside us, for they are the closest people to us. A golden rule is that we feel easier to listen and obey people whom we feel have goodness and love in them. Well, most of these human factors are based on faith, and we need the faith.

Like a bird perched on a rock, good faith will elevate us to a higher level of trust and joy. Remember trust walk, a man who is blindfolded understand the faith will give him comfort in following the lead of the person who can see. Like faith takes time for cultivation, good environment and good endeavours keeps faith growing in health. The bird in my garden leap up the rock like a symbol of faith, each level giving new joy and love, and this bird reaches a good height, feeling contented, leaving the top level sacred, as we human should understand our limitation and be contented once we received enough.

Penryn Chips and small talk

Well, I am a fan of technology and I love to surf the internet for two of my leads, that is the intel website for their latest innovations as well as ecogreen website to save and preserve Earth's heritage for future generation. From the intel website, I garnered a new discovery of chip classes. Penryn chips is the latest innovation, multi-cored, starting at 3.0Ghz, and slated to be in the market by late 2007. This is a chip that uses 0.45nm micro-architecture grid, and is using new power efficiency technology. Murphy Law is still working well after about 25 years in the market. For me, I am prudent with regards to my expenditure. While I do not need a computer just yet, I intend to upgrade my computer in two years time, when I have just started working, and that is in 2009, after I graduated from school. At that time, I will be probably buying an advanced Penryn computer with Penryn 2 coming out in about one more year's time, estimated according to computer development trend. Well, I am more at peace with computer now, for I use the computer for organizing data, surfing worthwhile website for good and purposeful knowledge, instead of my old computer gaming era.

Small talk about self and leisure is indeed very important to remain healthy and stable. I understand that while moral talks, concepts talks, worldly issues discussion as well as spiritual dialogues are big issues about life to talk about and definitely need careful thought before speaking, sometimes, we need to turn to small self talks about personalities, leisure, and our lifestyle to understand our personal development and to keep touch with our personality for a satisfactory humanistic feel and possible refinement of the soul. For me yesterday, I had a small dialogue with my friend Hwa Loong on origami and though the dialogue was short, the feel was of enjoyment.

God's Grace

Today, I went to Tan Tock Seng hospital to meet my psychologist for treatment. I have an emotional instability that I have to treat for good. I need to think positive, be at peace, and be calm to interact harmoniously with the environment that I am in. I am thankful that the psychologist did her job with a good objective, for me to keep myself blissful and happy doing good activities and hobbies. I feel joy after meeting her, as I have a wonderful imaginary in my head to synergize me for joy. That imaginery is my mom's beautiful smile. I cherished that, and God further help me after that with good television programmes, and at the same time, with children light hearted message of thanksgiving. This further enforce the grace that children are a gift from heaven. I am grateful that we are pure and innocent at birth, and as we grow up, we become more understanding of the world, and more well-tuned to love God for his gift of life. While we contribute to the world to promote life for humans, we also give thanks to God for the ability to be joyous in life. To me, giving more allows one to receive more. The joy comes from the giving itself, and that is what God wants us to be, to be in service and positive social interaction with each other.

Now, while I am not in Church to recuperate for my health, and understanding the goodwill of the church all these while, I feel grateful. Though, I feel the life of church, being good and purposeful in praising God and learning spirituality, I feel that somehow, my purpose and the direction the church is leading me does not coincide, though I definitely concede that the church has superior wisdom compared to my normal understanding. The point is, the church ideology does not coincide with some of my understanding, and while the church is also right, I understand, to contribute to Earth more, I may be better being with my mom. While this is true for me, as my mind is switching to and fro between reality and faithful belief, my humble mind needs to perceive reality properly. One thing I understand, is that as long as I want to praise God earnestly, I may go to church to sing glory of God's perfection, though at this moment, due to my circumstances, my mental health and my duty to help my parents, especially my mum, makes me understand the sad reality that I am away from church for a time period. While there seems to be a release of church duty for me, I understand I better fill my time with purposeful activities. Hereby, I will always be in debt to the church for uplifting my morals and leading in the path of righteousness. I am a friend of Jesus Christ, whose story touched and moved my heart, for I know he softened my heart with his unconditional love. In some way, my heart is still for the church. At best, I understand the beauty of home, Earth. Please, my dear friends, reality is not perfect, though cherish your reality. God knows everything. Choose grace. Do pray for altruistic causes.