Softness and Hardship(Part 1)

I think the vote on this is fairly obvious, that most people choose softness than hardship. While I myself is learning to enjoy soft love in the grace of the holy God, there has been an encumber of hardship that I have faced in my humble life.

Well, I guess, man do face hurdles in life and man need to understand some are avoidable, some are solvable, and some can be softened and sweetened by going through them together. Good wisdom may enlightened the hurdle and soften and smoothen the interesting journey called life. Hardship is an option most can avoid, and some may taste in small proportion while in the good flow of life. For me, I have a strict Dad, and I have to be relenting, wise and diplomatic to relate to my father well. That is still fine and part of my birth heritage. I love my father. Well, I have a soft mother to complement.

One hurdle of hardship that I undertake is my time in Hwa Chong, as I wanted to be a scholar, therefore I studied everyday, and for long hours, with a feel that is an unhealthy yet purposeful balance, with a twist of good grades being the energy boost. Well, this is hardship that I take upon myself for a hope of a good future, being somewhere on the good fast track to a good and safe career. That period of time is when my mind is still relatively stable and pragmatic.

Well, I was too hard on myself, and slowly, I lost sight of the loving nature that sustains my tough endeavor, and that is one main reason I fail.

Now, this failure made me feel like a lost ship that need a new sail of direction. Well, I was not wise then, and my intellect is somewhat toned down at that time. My lack of soulful depth causes me to lose the chance of making a successful comeback. Well, my unsteady, distressed and immature self got me in second trouble. Praise God that I am making a slow comeback in God's grace and in the virtuous path.

Repentance is slow and as my life stumble upon religion, I made some unintentional mistakes and sometimes things goes out of my control, and this is humbling light to how small yet significant we humans are. Well, God is ever-gracious and we are given a good path to walk. For religion I faced hardship too, though this is of a nature that is difficult to disclose here, and I understand that there is a hidden blessing in certain troubles we have, and this just promotes God's superior wisdom and our humble character moulding process.

This is my life. Well, the hardship I faced, and the three years that I lost in school, though the saving grace is through the intangible benefit that is the shaping of our heart into a beautiful crystal. Well, tomorrow, I shall talk more about this topic, breathe new light into the art of softness that may blend in well into our life for a sweet smelling aroma that is the fragance of a fine life.