God's Grace

Today, I went to Tan Tock Seng hospital to meet my psychologist for treatment. I have an emotional instability that I have to treat for good. I need to think positive, be at peace, and be calm to interact harmoniously with the environment that I am in. I am thankful that the psychologist did her job with a good objective, for me to keep myself blissful and happy doing good activities and hobbies. I feel joy after meeting her, as I have a wonderful imaginary in my head to synergize me for joy. That imaginery is my mom's beautiful smile. I cherished that, and God further help me after that with good television programmes, and at the same time, with children light hearted message of thanksgiving. This further enforce the grace that children are a gift from heaven. I am grateful that we are pure and innocent at birth, and as we grow up, we become more understanding of the world, and more well-tuned to love God for his gift of life. While we contribute to the world to promote life for humans, we also give thanks to God for the ability to be joyous in life. To me, giving more allows one to receive more. The joy comes from the giving itself, and that is what God wants us to be, to be in service and positive social interaction with each other.

Now, while I am not in Church to recuperate for my health, and understanding the goodwill of the church all these while, I feel grateful. Though, I feel the life of church, being good and purposeful in praising God and learning spirituality, I feel that somehow, my purpose and the direction the church is leading me does not coincide, though I definitely concede that the church has superior wisdom compared to my normal understanding. The point is, the church ideology does not coincide with some of my understanding, and while the church is also right, I understand, to contribute to Earth more, I may be better being with my mom. While this is true for me, as my mind is switching to and fro between reality and faithful belief, my humble mind needs to perceive reality properly. One thing I understand, is that as long as I want to praise God earnestly, I may go to church to sing glory of God's perfection, though at this moment, due to my circumstances, my mental health and my duty to help my parents, especially my mum, makes me understand the sad reality that I am away from church for a time period. While there seems to be a release of church duty for me, I understand I better fill my time with purposeful activities. Hereby, I will always be in debt to the church for uplifting my morals and leading in the path of righteousness. I am a friend of Jesus Christ, whose story touched and moved my heart, for I know he softened my heart with his unconditional love. In some way, my heart is still for the church. At best, I understand the beauty of home, Earth. Please, my dear friends, reality is not perfect, though cherish your reality. God knows everything. Choose grace. Do pray for altruistic causes.